The road taken

Haylo, its been long since i last visit my blog. cause nowadays i seldom on the pc whereby the ipad is much more convenient compared to starting the pc and waiting for a billion hours to start. So yeah. i have found a new obsess for shoes. i can be really picky for shoes just like a girl or maybe worse. i can stand there looking at it for 2 hours and still not buy any. cause there is just so many. and many pattern which im interested in. so beautiful. Just like how i choose girls. it must fit you right. have the right colour and pattern. oh how i yearn for shoes.

Enough about shoes. my course it getting a lil tougher because we have to run a restaurant by our own. lazy to talk about it la. cause i am still thinking what to do after this course ends. To continue study or go work. its really frustrating. seriously.

So again and again i will say love life is being a bitch again. i also got used to it already. so no point being emo and shit. sometime i even had the thought that being single is not that bad after all. Last time when i was with my ex i felt like gawd pls have mercy. its like a chain been put to my legs. i msg her every fucking day. and there was this record in my phone i reached 16,000 sms in 3-4 month. i was so hook to it. everywhere i go msg kept coming. really. now  i don’t have restrictions from girlfriend, can party hard, can go wherever i want with who i choose to go out with, spend my money on awesome stuff i like. if i had a girlfriend i probably wouldn’t have much time for friends. and have to call or text her to ask how is she doing and shit. while all the time she is just doing fine. unless she have less air to breathe. So that my point. i know its not necessary to be clingy and shit. but that was that. it was a long time ago anyway. maybe its different now.

So i actually like a friend. although we never really had much memories together accept the part in langkawi. where i had my third training. probably most of our memories were there. didn’t really share much when we were back in KL though. hi, bye kinda thing. There was also this song ” all the right moves” by one republic i used to listened to when i was there also by the time she left the island.(for your info she is a senior so she finish her training earlier than mine) is like i got some of memory stuck on my head for that particular song when she left. To say the least i really miss her that time. To cut it short now she just finished her degree and heading to Macau for work purposes. And that exact same song played in my car from the old cd i had. made me realize how much i missed on hanging with her. is like one of those stupid quote where they say u never really know how much someone meant to you until she is gone.i been thinking lately.why does she amaze me even though there were other girls i could find and whats the big deal she left  anyway, its not like we had anything before. and she is a Chinese educated girl which is not really my kinda thing. But for some reason it makes me forget about the expectations i was looking for in a girl which i am searching for like who gives a shit anymore for bitches. she is one person who remembered my dreams that i stupidly shared with her. who else ever said that to me? so many things are running through my head sometimes. Another though for another day. So much for now. Chao